yesterday was the day that we went out with each other.well also with my sister and nizam.yes, we don't talk that much and also we don't make any signs , but what else can i do but just to be by his side and be his listener.. well i hope, that he would realise how much i need him just by showing him. yes, i do feel awkward when i went out with him just now, and yes, i do feel uneasy, cause i know we are not ready yet to head out together. and also, i feel ashamed cause his willing to accept me for what i have done, well i think its my turn to feel what he feels and endure what his doing. giving him all that he could wanted and be there for him when his in need. and be his loyal girlfriend for most is my goal. i want him to trust me back like how he does and i will do anything it takes. yes, it may take a long time but with patience and perseverance, i know i can. if i can do it before why not with him? well note to self, nani, common , you are stronger than this, and you know you can get thru this. his your dream and his everything you ever wanted so why waste the person beside you, if you have done it you know you will need to face it again and again.and you know yourself that things will end, you must trust him on whatever his doing cause without him you cant be who you are, a changed person. kind enuf for god to bring him to you and you must cherish all that his given, not the perfect one but near to it. countless of times his been giving you warning but you are just to plain lazy to understand that and understand what he wants. yes, you are always there for him , but its not good enough for you too do it.people may seems to despise you when you are with him, but show them that his the best of everything on top of whatever people are telling you, you know what you want and who you want to be with, so dont be dumb and dont waste this chance, bring yourself together and stand string beside him not behind him.